Well what a year it’s been.. I think I say that every time I have sat down and wrote a yearly reflection post.. I honestly cannot believe how quick this year has gone by and how quickly my life has changed. I’ve definitely learnt a lot about who I am and learnt how to improve myself as a person. 2017 has been the year that I’ve left education and started working full time.. the reality of life has certainly hit! I’ve moved to the other side of the world and conquered some fears.. I’m excited to see what the New Year has to offer!
For those of you who know me personally or followed my pervious blog will know that this is the first time I’ve been honest with myself in regards to my mental health, and I’ve gone and sought out professional help; I cannot express how important it is, for anyone who is suffering with a mental illness, to talk about it and get some help. Doing this has allowed me too understand who I am, and how to better myself. It’s helped me to gain a lot more confidence in myself; at the start of the year I couldn’t speak to anybody I didn’t know over the phone or order dinner in a restaurant, and now I’ve flown to the other side of the world by myself – that is massive for me!
One of the biggest life lesson I’ve learnt this year, is to learn to be happy with myself before seeking happiness somewhere else. Looking back over past few years, I found myself relying on other friendships and relationships for happiness because I was so unhappy within myself, but deep down, I always knew that I wasn’t truly happy or myself in these relationships. I took a few months out of certain friendships and ended a relationship just so I had time to focus on me, and work out how I would/could be happy with myself and I believe I have got to the point where I can sit and say I’m 99.9% happy within myself, which is a massive improvement. I hope that I can continue to find happiness within myself moving forward in to the new year!
Packing up and moving to Auckland was a massive risk, but one I knew would work out. I have grown more as a person since being here, and I’ve defiantly had the final push In ‘finding’ who I am and life at the moment is very sweet. I have gained a lot more independence since leaving my friends and family back at home, managed to secure myself a full time job and made some pretty amazing memories already.. I am certainly looking forward to the future.
Moving forward in 2018, I’m hoping to have another amazing year and create more unforgettable memories. I have a couple of main resolutions for the upcoming year; I try not to be too harsh on myself if I don’t reach them all, but I think having something to aim for and achieve is always good for the start of the new year.
Get toned; I know this is such a cliche new years resolution, but since leaving college and spending time focusing on myself, I’ve had very little motivation to go to the gym or continue to train for athletics like I used too, but now that I am in a much better frame of mind, I would love to get back into the gym and turn it into a hobby again.
Join a sports team; Back when I was in school and in college I was always part of multiple sports teams and regularly took part in Cricket and Athletics in my spare time. There is a local athletics team that train about 10 minutes from where I work, but I don’t want to commit to anything that means I will loose time over the weekend when I could be going out and exploring; I’ve given up too many of my weekends to both athletics and cricket over the past 7 years, so I would love to find something in the new year that fills my evenings and leaves my weekends free! I also think it’s a great way to socialise and meet new people.
Pass driving test; Back in the UK I pretty much could drive but when I knew that I was coming to New Zealand, I kind of wanted to save as much money as possible for the move so I stopped learning to drive. Since I have been out in New Zealand and I’ve realised how much I would love it to be somewhere I could call ‘home’ for the foreseeable future, I have decided that passing my test here would be ideal.
Visit more countries; I’ve been pretty lucky growing up, I have travelled across Europe since the age of 3 and even adventured as far as Australia, but I’ve never been to the smaller islands that I’m closer to now, for example Bali, Thailand or Fiji, so I would love to make a trip this year to see one of those Islands.
Continue to say YES to more things; Since I have been trying to improve myself, I have found myself wanting to say yes to doing something I would normally shy away from; I will happily go out for breakfast to meet people that I don’t know, or go and explore Auckland City by myself. Normally I would shy away and not want to meet anybody else who wasn’t in my close nit of friends, but since I have been saying YES I have started to enjoy life 100x more than I used too, I’ve created some amazing memories and met some really cool people along the way, so I defiantly want to continue along this path in the future!
Have you made any New Year resolutions? If so, what are they?